One week down and feeling blah

[BarkleysMum]

I'm not sure where to post any more ... my heart is still with posting on the Newf part of the board - I hope you all don't mind!

I can't believe it's been over a week since Barkley left. I woke up this morning dreaming about when I was in with him, and weirdly, thinking that I had to do it all over again today.  I was so distressed when I woke up!

I took Sheba to the vet yesterday for her shots and a check up.  I had sent a card down with his picture on the front, and they had it taped up to the filing cabinet, which made me feel so great.  Like he'll not be forgotten there.  I hope they leave it up for a while.

Sheba, our "little" girl, weighed in at 91 lbs yesterday! Yikes!!! It's diet time!  We have to get 10 lbs off her.  She's back running with my husband, so hopefully that will help. 

Man, I miss my big guy this morning though.  I'd love to have him here putting me on ignore even! So...please give your big paw a big hug from me this morning, will ya? 

[longshadowfarms]

Definitely!  ((((((((HUGS!!)))))))  I still feel like my heart belongs to Thor and he's been gone since Nov.  When you love that deeply, it takes time to heal.  I love my other dogs but don't have that heart to heart connection like I did with Thor.

[DixieSugarBear]

It must have been something in the air last night, I had bad dreams all night that I could not find Dixie and Sugar Bear.  I love that it is ok here to feel sad even when the loss of Rosie was almost 2 years ago. I still feel the loss and miss my girl each and everyday.  I no longer hear her tags jingle but sometimes I do still feel her nose touch my ear or her head under my hand.  I guess they do get to check in on us.

The thing about your getting a new pup is that he/she will need so much of your time that you have less sad missing Barley time.

Lisa

[aggghgmom]

Of course you are still sad and upset it has only been one week; our feeling for our babies go much deeper than that.

My stoli has been gone 5 years this July.  I still talk to her often.  And when I play with Harley and tell him he is my best friend I ALWAYS have to add "that is alive" because I'm afraid I will hurt Stoli's feelings.

My husband and son made a mailbox for me years ago; it looks exactly like Stoli (B & W springer spaniel) same size painted exactly like her.  Anyway when we moved to our new house I didn't want to use it as a mailbox because the mailbox is on the street and was afraid someone by accident or on purpose would hit it; so I put it on the floor next to my fireplace; this year they made me one of Harley so I moved Stoli to the basement and put Harley in her place - that was a mistake that night I had horrible dreams of her coming to me and saying that I have forgotten her and how disappointed she was in me, I got up IMMEDIATELY and put her back where she belongs!!  Mailbox Harley is now in my dining room until I can find a proper place for him!!

I'm sorry you are feeling badly; but in time when you think of Barkley you will have a big smile and a small tear in your eye!!

Randy & Harley - (Stoli too!!)

[Icerotti]

I think I had crying bursts when we lost Katie for a good 3 weeks. It hits you at the most unexpected times. I had a hard time May 24  weekend this year b/c it had been 1 year since we lost her. Losing her hit me really hard . Even though she was given to me as a present-she became my husbands buddy..lol. I didn't think I could get through this day let alone have to  spend yet another day without her. Over time it got better and better. Soon we had a puppy to train and play with. Not that the puppy in any way replaced her. Our time was being occupied by a wacky Vizsla that sure kept us (and still does) on our toes.

 
It sounds really cliche to say but the rawness of it all seems to heal with time. Then it seems you can think of them with a smile on your face and even let out a little chuckle at something silly they use to do. Sure you will still shed a tear from time to time because they touch us so deeply.
((((((HUGS)))))))


Sheeba girl you better get running......l ol

[K9ldy00]

Each one of our furkids keeps a place in our hearts. When they cross over to the bridge it leaves a hole. But after time you fill the hole with their memories. It becomes easier to think of them with out crying. When I look at pictures of my furkids that have crossed over, I still shed a tear, even after 20 years. But then I smile as I remember the good times and that we will be together again after all when I meet them at the bridge.

[BarkleysMum]

Thanks everyone.  Again.  Man, I feel needy on this board...

I think part of it is that I've had a lousy weekend with the step-kids too.  This being a stepmom can suck sometimes, and this was one of those times.  Nothing that I said or did was heard or appreciated this weekend, and add that I don't have Barkley to cuddle me after an icky step kids weekend to the mix, and I got a big ol' case of the PLOMs (poor little ol' me's) big time.  I've just had my cry ... ate a chocolate bar ... and read all these posts. It's helped a lot. 

Do we have a place on this board to put step kids up for adoption?  I'm just asking.  hehehe

[doggylover]

I cried for 2 years, almost every night when I had to put my last dog to sleep.  You are allowed to be 'needy' here.  You will have to help me through it when Badger goes to the bridge, and trust me, the sobfest will last a heck of a lot longer than one lousy week!
As for the stepkids, I was with a man for 5 years who had kids.  When I got sick of them, I told them they had to 'earn' time with me through good behavior.  I was the fun time person, and if they were snippy or disrespectful, I passed them to their stupid father.  They LOVED me...totally bought that it was a 'privaledge' to spend the day with me. 
HEH just a little tip for what worked for me.  Of course it didn't work all that well, I ended up leaving him.  That man made me insane.  Oh well, the point is, you aren't alone in the stepkid difficulty either!
 

[Saint and Mal mom]

I'm still thinking about Barkley. I know how much you love him. He will never be forgotten. When I lost my Benny, it didn't really hit me until that night, when I looked at pictures of him and realized that he was only in those pictures anymore. I cried for awhile. But getting my puppy Zoey helped me realize that my love for Ben would help me raise Zoey right. Praying for you and sending hugs and slobbers from the girls your way!

[Fumble]

oooh geez! leave it to us to not post this weekend when you need it!  HUGS!  even though they're sent 2 days latE! 

[sarnewfie]

I am very behind on this board, and, just reading of your loss now, i dont know the story, but, i do know it is never easy to loose a canine companion.
i am so sorry for the loss and hope that in time, you will smile thru the tears.
take care, and thru all the photos posted here, maybe some day you can get another newf that will fill your heart with joy and love.

[Beth]

(((hugs))))

[pitas]

Sending you hugs from me & the Newfs here in Jersey.  I know it is a very difficult time and I hope your pain eases with each new day.

Anita & the 3 Newfies from NJ

[lins_saving_grace]

Sometimes it takes a long time to get through this.  I got teary eyed yesterday when I thought about missy who's been gone over a year now.  I got her 11 years ago on Memorial Day in 1995.   I still miss her.  I talk to her sometimes too.

He was and still is a big part of your life and that's a hard thing to loose.

Best Wishes!!!
lin

[smsmith]

I'm sharing Barkley's story with all my dog-loving friends -- somehow being part of BPO gives me the feeling like all these dogs are all of our dogs.

I miss Barkley, too.  Einstein & I send you lots of hugs!