I totally sympathize and relate to what you are going through. I lost my male Pyrenees in February, unexpectedly from a heart problem,he was 16 months old. I have his collar and his tags beside my bed, but cant dare to really hold the collar or look at it,and I had to put his pictures away that I had on my desk. I buried Tank within hours of him passing- it was a labor from the heart and not until I had laid him to rest did I realize what I had done. I think that I cried the entire time and really cant tell you how I managed to dig the hole, pick him up, kiss him, tell him good bye and then cover the grave. He was about 110 pounds, it was 30 degrees outside and raining. I then came into the house and went into total melt down.I still have total melt down at odd times and unexpectedly, but it is getting easier. Bless you for what you did for Rosie while she was in your care. There are so many dogs that dont ever know what it is like to be loved.I must say that the day that I read about Rosie- I had to log off because I could not stop crying- I know that you loved her and that had to have been hard to get through. God bless you and the fur babies that you have now. Hopefully each day will get better for you. By the way, I love the pictures that you have posted of her. It is evident how much you loved her.