There are choices for you...E-mail me here at the group if you need someone to talk to or some ideas on how to change your life...Nobody else is going to change it for you....I am thinking of you.
Lins, I second this. I am here for you to talk to if you need to. I haven't ever suffered any physical abuse, but I did have an ex-husband that wasn't too nice to me in a way that I am pretty sure was mental abuse. I could never do anything right - he would tell me I was too fat, too ugly, too stupid and that no one would ever want me because of it. It got to the point where I would just sit down and shut up because I was tired of all the arguing. I felt like my whole personality changed. But the point is, HE WAS WRONG and I deserved better. And if you feel like you deserve better, well you probably do. In fact, I am pretty sure of it. Who you were a long time ago is not as far away as you might think.
So, take me up on the offer if you want - email me. We don't ever even have to talk about anything other than our doggies, but I want you to know that I am there for you if need it.