I can't realy say much because I am still too upset, but I wanted you all to know... After I posted about Zoey doing ok, so started crying again, andn then around midnight she took a turn for the worse. Her stiches bust on her butt and she was crying and barking unconsollably, so I took her to tufts emergency room. The only way the vet could get to stop crying was to sedate her, and it was clear that the issue was more serious than we thought and she we would not be able to make her happy and healthy again. So I had to do the right thing for her and let her be free from pain. It was such a hard decision for me, especially since dan was not there to say goodbye to her, but I know it was the right thing to do for her with all her health issues and she is finally at peace.
I know that I did the right thing for her, but knowing that doesn't make it any easier and I have been crying hysterically all day. I feel like a zombie and now it is so hard to be home alone and know that she isn't here and she isn't coming back. I think I am going to go visit dan in texas cause we are both havingh a hard time being alone. I miss her so much